MY life as it is...

My life right now, is far more relaxed than last year, even though I have no job, my boyfriend has outright told me that he likes a 16 year old girl from work more than me, and I am constantly switching between being so depressed that I don't want to get out of bed, and forcing myself out of bed with such enthusiasm that it's like I'm not depressed at all. It's oodles of fun being bi-polar! Even if I am only mildly so. It still counts. It totally does...

So now I have to go out and look for another job, which I have. I hate the whole process of pretending to be better than you are so that other people will like you. It's even worse for me because I have to convince these people that I adore customers and waiting on their every need.

When in truth, I hate people. Not all people, just society as a whole. If you break the world down into basic groups and generalize them all, I hate most of them. I hate arrogant people who insist on making retail workers their personal maids. I hate people that are so wishy-washy that they can't make any decisions on their own and are always asking you which would be the right one. I hate teenagers who think they are better than everyone else. I didn't get along with teenagers when I was one, and I certainly don't get along with them now. I hate people who think they are better than you, just because you are trying to work a decent honest job in the service industry. I hate people who are so dumb they don't even know their own shoe size. Like, how are can you go to a store and try on shoes, and NOT know your own SHOE SIZE?!?!?

Working in retail, I have concluded that 2/3 of the human population can be down-right STUPID, especially when it comes to shopping. And I do not make any excuses for the many many stupid employees out there too. I have worked with far too many a girl who was completely useless at their job, and were it up to me, would have been fired long before their probationary three month period.

Well, that's my rant for right now. I'm gonna go eat some breakfast...