Truth be told, I don't want to go out and find a job. Not because I'm lazy. Not because it scares me. But because I don't feel that I am ready to deal with not being myself again. Last year was really hard on me, I took alot of stress and was really drained, and it really rocked me to my core. So much so that I became seriously depressed, and finally went to my doctor about it. And even though I am taking medication and seeing a therapist, I still feel like there is alot of issues that I haven't overcome or dealt with yet. I still don't feel like myself.
But how can I be 28, almost 29, living at home and unemployed? I can't! I have to go out and make myslef some money, to pay down the debts that I have amassed. And it's not like I want to live at home forever. I would love to move out on my own, but I feel like I am never going to afford to. I can't make enough money to pay down my debt and live the lifestyle that I want to live.
I am in a never ending circle and I don't know how to make it stop. I don't know how to make myself happy with who I am right now, and the circumstances that I am in. I'm scared because I don't know what my future will bring. I've spent so much of my life dreaming of what I could do or what I'll become, and I am nowhere near any of that. I've had all my dreams shattered, reality has sunk in, and I am lost. I don't know what I want to do, I don't know where I want to be.
How can I move on with my life, if I don't know which path I am on?
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Hrmm, hard question to answer. I went through that a couple years ago, so just picked a path that seemed reasonable. I've missed the mark on a lot of my goals, but I made enough progress that I feel like I'm *on* a path.
That's the best I could suggest: just do some thinking on a place you want to be in life. Not something terribly large-scale or far into the future--my goal at the start was to have an apartment in Vancouver and a low-stress job making at least $10/hr to pay for it.
Pick something you could accomplish within the next year or so that you think would make you happier than you are now. We can work from there.
Thanks life coach Sara!! ;)
Now about my consulting fee... (:
Awwww... Sunshine... You have always been the high energy life of the party type to me growing up!!! you need to tap into that and just rock it out!!!
You are very lucky to have great parents!!! And an awesome sister!!!
Why not go into a program like Pharmacy Tech... its a fun 6 months of schoo.... not hard at all and you can make some good money depending on where you work!! And the job is pretty stress free, and so much fun!!! LOL
But that is a suggestion... you are so very smart and young... dont let this blip get you down!!!
*like Im one to talk eh??;)
*HUGS*
Nicole
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